Mad At Disney

I’ve realized that I’ve been quite unnecessarily ‘critical’ of songs lately. Which further validates that maybe I do put an unhealthy amount of thought into things that should really just be enjoyed as they are.

It’s not an ideal world where everything would be accepted as easily. Our minds, with all the brilliance they possess, have ways of working experiences or lessons of our lives into the music we listen to. Or the other way around.

For instance, the other day I was driving with Adele’s Someone Like You on the stereo. I found myself arguing that I’m never going to find ‘someone like you’ for it’s not going to be the same love twice. Love will present itself at my door, in different forms and peculiarities. It might be someone else and someone new, but it’s entirely okay, because it is still Love even if love is not you.

A few days later, Elina’s Wild Enough randomly came up my Spotify playlist. To the wrong person, I’ll never be wild enough. Heck, I’ll never even be enough, whatever ‘enough’ explicates. But to the right person, I’ll never have to be anything more than who I already am. And he’ll always be willing to find and see all the old and new pieces of me.

Earlier today, I heard Mad At Disney by Salem Ilese. A song I cannot relate to, catchy regardless. Life is not a fairytale like how Disney has been depicting it to be. Reality hits much harsher and hurts deeper than what has been portrayed on TV. In real life, prince charming wont be returning your glass shoes on his gallant white horse, you got to chase your own flip-flops down a flooded road when they got carried away during a heavy downpour. And no, nobody saves you from the locked tower but yourself honey because in your own tale, you save yourself, always.

Maybe I should stop analyzing and enjoy music just as it is. It is indeed too bad that my brain wont allow me to do so. My apologies if this particular post ‘ruins’ your listening experience. Do enjoy every music that serenades your ears and hearts and may the beats calm and heal your pain and broken pieces.

How Are You?

We get this question every other day.

It’s almost a courtesy to ask people how they’re doing, when we’ve not seen or meet them for a long time. More so now that the whole world is going through this pandemic.

Our perception of this question is usually as simple as it sounded regardless of how complicated our life is at that moment. So we answered simply with, ‘I’m doing just fine.’

Maybe we’ve bumped into a familiar face once in a while at the mall and assured each other that we’re doing okay. Maybe we had a hard and stressful time at work and refused to talk about it with anybody. Maybe our relationship with our loved ones were on the brink of collapsing but we felt that nobody needs to know that. Maybe we thought that our depressed episodes should not be of another’s concern.

Hence, we summarise our days or weeks or months – all the good, bad and ugly – into one effortless answer ; I AM FINE.

When sadly, deep down we know that we’re surely not, not exactly, maybe not even close.

Imagine if ‘how are you?’ is actually ‘how is your heart/soul doing?‘.

Imagine that people were really sincerely checking out on us, and not just asking out of common courtesy. Surely, ‘I AM FINE‘ wont suffice and wont do justice as an answer.

Because our hearts may be weary and our souls exhausted. Because we may be on the verge of breaking down. Because life may just be a repetitive cycle of mundanes. Because we may no longer find the strength to chase after our life-long dreams. Because after all that we’ve been through, we may felt like there are no other options except for giving up.

If that’s the case then truly, we’re not fine at all.

Hectic schedules in our daily lives may cause us to abandon our true feelings and deep thoughts. In order to maintain healthier emotional levels, it is super important for us to regularly recognise and acknowledge the contents of our own hearts and soul. Once acknowledged, we can further determine the cure to our brokenness, to fill the gaps of all cracks and hollows.

I’d like to think that the current pandemic – in all it’s seemingly never-ending quarantine time and tedious queuing at the store – to be a surprisingly humbling and introspective experience.

For we now have ample time to contemplate deeply within ourselves. In the confinements of our own abode, in the wee hours of silence when the world goes to sleep, we may find ourselves alone and at peace with our feelings and thoughts through meditation and ultimately, through prayer.

It’s definitely not an easy task. But whats worthy are never easy.

It takes more courage to examine the dark corners of your own soul than it does for a soldier to fight on a battlefield.

W.B. Yeats

May we be given strength and courage to delve deep within our beings and confront the demons that has been wreaking havoc on our faith in all things that are good and positive in our lives. And when the time comes, may we finally be able to say that we are absolutely fine with unquestionable confidence and clarity.

Let Good People Be

It honestly boggles my mind that people would have a problem with others who do good or do nothing wrong, just because it does not align with their thinking or principle.

Shouldn’t that be the main goal of humankind; to be good? Or at least to try?

Now and then, I felt trapped in the world of immaturity, where the people around me act like a bunch of teenagers who would ridicule their peers just because they think or do things differently. Which further proves that grown ups can be immature and age is, really, just a number.

If I’m doing something that will put me at a position of loss, it’s understandable if you choose to talk me out of doing it. But what if what I’m doing is actually right and justified despite being at loss, are you still calling me out for doing it?

Yes, just because an act is right and justified, does not necessarily mean that you gain a favor or prize in return. Nobody is gonna reward us for the time we spend tidying up the classroom but we do it anyway. Nobody is gonna praise us for keeping the public toilet clean before and after we use them but we do it anyway. Nobody is gonna pay us a penny for each trash we pick up along the street but we do it anyway.

Because doing good is not about others, it is about us. It builds our character; one that is kind, respectful, mindful and good. The world is a tough crowd, but good people makes it bearable. So, if we cant find one, be one.

The next time we see people doing good, join them. But if we cant, let’s do the world a favor and just let good people be.