CNY 2017

Yes, I celebrate CNY (Chinese New Year). Ever since I could remember.

I wont share pictures here because I did not really took any. And my phone camera quality sucks. And they’re pretty personal photos. And I dont have an Instagram account where I can share them photos. And also, I have decided to teach myself to enjoy the moments through my God-given eyes instead of pixels, while they lasts.

It was the same every year. Reunion dinner at a restaurant, berjarah to family’s houses the next day, BBQ at one of the houses at night. We had seafood for dinner on the 2nd day, which was costly (basically not that worthy) but considering we’re together, that counted as a blessing. And we’re super thankful for that.

I have 2 days of leave for CNY. 1 holiday due to Hari Wilayah. I’ll be returning to work on Thursday. More like I have to return to work on Thursday. Oh, le commitments.

Anyways, I had a meet up with a few friends from high school today. We had so much to talk about. Mostly things that are morbid. Like work, responsibilities, the future of mankind. Like how none of us rakyat marhaen are able to own a house. Like how we should not really give a shit about Donald Trump being POTUS, and instead focuses on making our country a better place to live in. Like how me and Sue apparently have similar views on marriage. Like how Azreen’s the next in line to the future of happily ever after, after Minah. Like how Wan have already found his significant other, and being real discreet about it too.

I knew these people from 2009. They’re those who accepted me when others did otherwise. They’re those who protected me when I was bullied. They’re those who consoled me and patted me in the back when I cried. They’re those who never judged me. They’re those who taught me that perfection does not exist, the only thing that does is how I choose to define myself.  They’re those who were (and hopefully will be) still willing to berjarah to my house for Eid annually. Meeting up with them made me realize that we might grow up and molded into who we are today. But our habits, at least for some of us, stayed.

After several meet ups, I’ve come to realized that I dont really have to wait for friends to initiate a meet up/gathering. I’m the one who should start the move. And each of them were all worth it in the end. I was not exactly the friendly and bubbly type, but I guess as I get older, I wanted to keep the friends that I have made in my younger days. Especially those who have taught me gazillions about life, that has made me who I am today.

I swear I’d be the better friend than I was 8 years ago. But we cannot possibly turn back time. So, I promise myself to be the best one today.

CR: The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde, pg 45/224.


Starting 2017.

It’s been 2 weeks since the new year started. Let’s just say that I’m quite contented with everything that’s happened so far.

A day before 2017, I managed to have dinner with an ex-schoolmate. It was a short meeting, with everything that comes to mind had to be compressed in one fast catching-up session, within an hour and a half. From ‘what is up’ to ‘questions about significant others’ to ‘how is work’ and without realizing it was 10pm and shops were closing. We were planning to celebrate 2017 by joining in the crowds at Dataran Merdeka but I was not permitted to. So, the plan had to be cancelled. Maybe next year.

My friend had to rush back to UM by bus and me back home by KTM. The trains were unusually packed and crowded with all sorts of people be it locals or foreigners. Understandable since it was on the verge of 2017. People are pouring out of their houses to spectate and join in the countdown towards a new year.

Here’s a short rant though. I knew it was almost 2017, it was around 10.30pm. But could people keep it all in and be CIVILISED by allowing the passengers to exit the trains FIRST before they stormed in like the stations on fire and they’re going to burn to hell? Honestly. I pray that this year we see less of these people who acts in such an uncivilized manner. The station’s not on fire so chill your asses out.

Anyways, I witnessed the fireworks from home. It was basically the same thing, regardless of where I’d have watched it from. Maybe the difference it probably made was who I was watching it with.

The first weekend of 2017 was spent productively, I suppose. Went to a book launch, my first experience at that too. The author was a 22 year old Malaysian guy, who ‘escaped the rat race and met Queen Elizabeth II’. I got notified about that particular book launch by Nation Building School, after registering as a member sometime around last year. Tired of feeling languid and to release the pressures from work, I decided to join in and see what it’s all about. Besides the book launch, a mini discussion on CREATING A POSITIVE IMPACT: WHAT YOUTHS CAN DO TODAY, by Calvin Woo the author himself, Paul Rennie the Deputy High Commisioner to Malaysia, Tricia Yeoh the COO of IDEAS and Danial Rahman the Press Secretary to Malaysia’s Minister of Higher Education was held.

It was a great experience and definitely an inspirational one, meeting quite a number of people who have achieved way more than I could ever imagined to. I made a new friend , A Bach. in Computer Science student from INTI College, who won 2nd Runner Up for the YSEALI Food Innovation Challenge. Listening to her speaking about what she has gone through to win the competition, the struggles and the hard works to innovate an app for fishing amazed me. She’s like pretty much the definition of ‘you can get whatever you want if you just put your heart on it’. Meanwhile, I was an inactively-morbid (is this even considered the right combination of words LOL) student who preferred caving in and ponder about life within the boundary of my comfort zone.

The discussion was an extremely beneficial one with all the good inputs on how youths nowadays can make a difference in their own life and also the future of our country, or the world even. The discussion also highlighted on finding one’s purpose in life and directing one’s energy and positivity towards achieving that particular purpose in one’s own way and methods, to not necessarily follow the norm in the process. Basically, ‘to achieve is to try and those who never tried had already failed’. And I could not have agreed more with that statement. Besides that, you do not necessarily have to wait for any medium or time to make a change. Instead, you should be the one who initiate the change.

After the book launch, I had the opportunity to have lunch with my best friend of 9 years. I gave him his belated birthday present and got mine at the same time. He wanted a keychain, so:

The one he got me, a Dragon Claw Hook keychain (Google)
The one I got him, a Talisman of Evasion keychain (Google)

Talking about Dotards. It was our first lunch together and we had a catch-up session mostly about our friends from high school and some other random topics.

The thing about meeting up with friends is that at the end of our meeting, I’ll always regret talking too much. I tend to make it all about me when I think I should have listened more on my friends’s part of the story. And the fact that I’m always so opinionated about almost everything and being vocal about them too. It made me seemed truculent and confrontational when I’m just trying to lay down the facts. Okay, now I just sounded like a smart-ass when I’m not.

Oh God, I’d make the worst date ever.

Anyways, I think that pretty much sums up the start of 2017. I’m not going to reveal my so-called resolutions and goals because apparently you tend to lose motivation to achieve when you say them out loud. Who knows.

Let’s all just strive to be better human beings this year.

CR: The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde, pg 11/224.